Indian parents and their way of life

The Indian parents are very loving and dedicated to their children. No questions in that. But it is till the time the children cross the maturity level of parents.

Nowadays the parents and children live in two different cultural/belief systems. Parents live based on carefree slow life as in village/town of 1980s INdia. By then the words-to-mouth/mouth-to-word conversation was very reilable. We children live in 2010 ; the concept is Expert-Service with Service-Level-Agreement. This part creates a bit of irritation in parent-children relation (though not serious issue). Whenever I ask my dad/mom on some thing they give a fuzzy time-line. They dont care about the finishing date or any such stuff. But I am concerned about the SLA. Also I need things fast. Could not wait 1 week to get an info from one guy to carry-on my works further.

The concept emerged because most of the works are not done on expected time and in expected manner. Now the problem is most of the world moved to this expert-service model of society .. and hence there is no reliable persons word-to-word society. But our parents still fidelling with forgery/faulty/unqualified persons for getting their work-done and end up in mess.

Soul touching songs

I have been thinking long long ago about writing a blog entry for soul-touching videos that I enjoyed.

One such song is the 'RETURN TO INNOCENCE' by ENIGMA.
What a song it is !!!!! simply it is a 'magical song'. Whenever I watch the song in youtube, it alters my mood. Just before this blog entry I listened to this song and made up my mind to write this immediately. I feel it like a sin as I dint wrote about it these many days.

Also, another ENIGMA's song 'AGE OF LONELINESS' is too good as well. The background high pitched humming lady voice seems to be coming from my soul within. So divine feeling it creates to any one hearing the song. The song has not much lyrics.. but it is the lady voice that gives a mystical feeling to the listener. The video is also too good to watch.

Then, there is one of Illayaraja's 'DUBAI CONCERT SURPRISE PACKAGE' (search in youtube). This is my regional favorite. When I was in Glasgow for an year, I used to hear this song very often. This song reminds me about my home town. The lyrics is very apt, that any tamil guy living abroad can understand much deeper meaning in it. Even today I heard this song in youtube and felt good. Illayaraja is very great person. The way he express the meaning of lyrics is too heart-warming. Many persons given their feeling on hearing this song in 'comments' to is youtube video. It is one such must-watch video in my list.

Then another song from AKON is 'MR LONELY'. This song.. I hear much often when in Glasgow. I felt lonely.. very lonely there.. I got money.. good job.. nice people around.. but still there is a lonely feeling occupying my mind when I was abroad... Now I am in Chennai (Tamilnadu) and enjoying every moment. I could see every people speaking in Tamil. It is one such wonderful feeling for anyone who lived for quite long away from Tamilnadu.

hmm.. then .. 'ULLATHIL NALLA ULLAM' song in 'KARNAN' movie (old tamil movie). This song I liked from my childhood. This song gives a good-feeling & courage ... that, even though any good person might suffer in life.. finally he ends up being GREAT... all one need is good-thinking/good-wish/good-activity in spite of surrounding problems... which will be never forget over time..


there are still a quite big list of soul-touching songs.. but these being very prominent in my mind.. Hope many people have this in yours list..

english to tamil : project / task / job

Being a software engineer and tamil-fan .. i was trying to find tamil equivalent words for 'project' 'task' 'job'... later i found the following words

project = பணி

task = அலுவல்

job = வேலை

Ponniyin Selvan

I have heard lot about this novel 'Ponniyin selvan'. Finally I got a chance to read now a days. I am very much interested into learning history, especially that of Tamilnadu as I am proud about it. This book brings everything infront of the eyes with effects more than what James Cameroon did in AVATAR.

The book goes like seeing from within the mind of the hero 'Vandhiyathevan' . Kalki writes what is happening in the mind/consciousness of the hero into this book. So whenever you read the book, you feel like you are inside Vandhiyathevan's brain and seeing the story. So I feel it is more than 3D movie.

Simply to put forward, the book takes you back in time and make you yearn for that kind of life. Because that life is slow and full of colors, celebrations and people work for themselves and their people. Even though there is a war, the people die for their people (which is a small circle and not a big country as of today, where Indians die in Europe fighting for British and British die in Afghanistan fighting Talibans .. Bull Shit !!! ). Now a days I am working for foreign country for their happiness. I get money with which I cannot stay near my family and enjoy the way I wanted. Holy Shit !!! That age is really beautiful and interesting than today....

Lyrics.. I liked.. / எனக்கு பிடித்த பாடல் வரிகள்

Paiyaa / பையா

செல் செல் அவளுடன் செல் ..
என்றே கால்கள் செல்லுதடா ..
சொல் சொல் அவளிடம் சொல் ..
என்றே நெஞ்சம் கொள்ளுதடா ..
அழகாய் மனதை பரித்துவிட்டளே .....

Sel sel avaludan sel,
Yendrey kaalgal seluthada..
Sol sol avalidam sol,
Yendrey nenjam kolluthadaa..
Azhagai manathai parithu-vittaley..

Gajini (Tamil) / கஜினி

கருப்பு வெள்ளை பூக்கள் உண்டா?
உன் கண்ணில் நான் கண்டேன்...
உன் கண்கள்.....
வண்டை உண்ணும் பூக்கள் என்பேன்..

karuppu veLLai pookaL uNda
un kaNNil naan kaNdaen
un kaNgaL vandai uNNum pookkaL enbaen

Jil endru oru kaadhal / ஜில் என்று ஒரு காதல்

Jil endru boomi irunthum indha tharunathil kulir kalam Kodai anatheno ?
Va anbe neyum vanthal senthanal kuda panikati pola marume !

ஜில் என்று பூமி இருந்தும் .. இந்த தருணத்தில் குளிர் காலம் கோடை ஆனதேனோ ??!!
வா அன்பே .. நீயும் வந்தால் செந்தழல் கூட பனிக்கட்டி போல மாறுமே!!!

Vaaranam Aayiram /வாரணம் ஆயிரம்

நெஞ்சுக்குள் பெய்திடும் மாமழை ..
நீருக்குள் மூழ்கிடும் தாமரை...
சட்டென்று மாறுது வானிலை ..
பெண்ணே உன் மேல் பிழை ..
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ஏதோ ஒன்று என்னை ஈர்க்க..
மூக்கின் நுனி மர்மம் சேர்க்க..
கள்ளத்தனம் ஏதும் இல்லா..
புன்னகையோ போகமில்ல..
நீ நின்ற இடம் என்றால் .. விலை ஏறி போகாதோ..
நீ செல்லும் வழியெல்லாம் .. பனிக்கட்டி ஆகாதோ..
என்னோடு வா .. வீடு வரைக்கும் ..
என் வீட்டை பார் என்னை பிடிக்கும்..
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காதல் என்னை கேட்கவில்லை..
கேட்டல் அது காதல் இல்லை..

Nenjukkul paeithidum maamazhai
Neerukkul mulkidum thaamarai
Sattendru maaruthu vaanilai
Pennae un mel pizhai…..
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Yetho ondru ennai eerkka
Mookkin nuni marmam serkka
Kalla thanam yethum illa, punnagaiyo bogham illa
Nee nindra idam endraal, vilai yeri poghatho?
Nee sellum vazhiyellam, pani katti aaghatho?
Ennodu vaa, veedu varaikkum
En veetai paar, ennai pidikkum!..
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Kaadhal yenai ketkavillai
Kettalathu kaadhal illai!

Kaadhalar Dhinam / காதலர் தினம்

உயிரே .. உனையே .. நினைந்து..
விழி நீர் மழையாய் நனைந்து..
இமையில் இருக்கும் இரவு உறக்கம் ..
கண்விட்டு போயாச்சு .. காரணம் நீயாச்சு ..
நிலவு எரிக்க நினைவு கொதிக்க..
ஆறாத நெஞ்சாச்சு .. ஆகாரம் நஞ்சாச்சு ..
தினம் தினம் உனை நினைக்கிறன் .. துரும்பென உடல் இளைக்குறேன்..
உயிர் கொண்டுவரும் பதுமையே .. உனை விட இல்லை புதுமையே..


Uyirae Unaiyae Ninaiththu Vizhineer Mazhaiyil Nanaindhu
Imaiyil Irukkum Iravu Urakkam
Kan Vittup Poayaachchu Kaaranam Neeyaachchu
Nilavu Erikka Ninaivu Kodhikka
Aaraadha Nenjaachchu Aagaaram Nanjaachchu
Dhinam Dhinam Unai Ninaikkiraen Thurumbena Udal Ilaikkiraen
Uyir Kondu Varum Padhumaiyae Unaivida Illai Pudhumaiyae

En Swasa Kaatrae / என் சுவாச காற்றே

சின்ன சின்ன மழை துளிகள் சேர்த்து வைப்பேனோ
மின்னல் ஒளியின் நூல் எடுத்து கோர்த்து வைப்பேனோ.
சக்கரவாகமோ மழையை அருந்துமாம்.... நான்
சக்கரவாக பறவையாவேனோ..
மழையின் தாரைகள் .. மைய விழுதுகள்..
விழுது பிடித்து விண்மீன் சேர்வேனோ..
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அந்த மேகம் சுரந்த பாலில் ஏன் நனைய மறுக்கிறாய்
நீ வாழ வந்த வாழ்வில் ஒரு பகுதி இழக்கிறாய்
நீ கண்கள் மூடி கரையும்போது ..--.. மண்ணில் சொர்க்கம் எய்துவாய்..


chinna chinna mazhai thuligal serthu vaippeno
minnal oliyil nooleduthu korthu vaippeno
chakkaravagamo mazhayai arundhumam-naan
sakkaravaga paravai aaveno
mazhayin thaaraigal vaira vizhidugal
vizhudhu pidithu vinmeen serveno

andha megam surandha paalil yen nanaya marukkirai
nee vaazha vandha vaazhvil oru pagudi izakkirai
nee kangal moodi karayum podhu mannil sorgam eeyduvaai


Pudhupettai/ புதுப்பேட்டை

Ulagathin ooram ninru athanaiyum paarthirupoom
Nadapavai naadagam enru naamum serunthu nadithiripoom

உலகத்தின் ஓரம் நின்று அத்தனையும் பார்த்திருப்போம்..
நடப்பவை நாடகம் என்று நாமும் சேர்ந்து நடித்திருப்போம்...

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kadalula veyilila uppeduppOm naanga
thayir saadham saapida uppukaekareenga
kallaraikku pakkathula vaazharOm naanga
pada katti pONam pOna mooka pOthareenga

pozhappukku kadalula OdurOm naanga
thoppaikku kadalula Odureenga neenga
kaasu paNam sethu vechu kanja thanam aenga?
puttukitta paNathaala enna paNNuveenga?

கடலுல வெயிலில உப்பெடுப்போம் நாங்க
தயிர் சாதம் சாப்பிட உப்பு கேக்குறீங்க
கல்லறைக்கு பக்கத்துல வாழுறோம் நாங்க
பாடை கட்டி பொணம் (பிணம்) போன மூக்க போத்துறீங்க.

பொழப்புக்கு கடலுல ஓடுறோம் நாங்க
தொப்பைக்கு கடலுல ஓடுறீங்க நீங்க
காசு பணம் சேர்த்து வச்சு கஞ்சத்தனம் ஏங்க?
பூட்டிகிட்ட பணத்தால என்ன பண்ணுவீங்க?

Dishum / டிஷும்

Indru Pirakkindra Poovukkum.. Siru Pullukkum.. Kaadhal Uraithu Mudithaen
Ullam Kaadhalikkum Unakku Mattum, Innum Sollavillayae Illayae…
Latcham Pala Latcham Ingu Thaai Mozhiyil Sollirukka
Otha Chollu Sikkavillai Yedhanaalae..
Pandhi Vacha Veetukaari Paathiratha Kazhuvittu
Pattiniyaa Kalaippaalae
Ahu Poalae..



இன்று பிறக்கின்ற பூவுக்கும் , .. சிறு புல்லுக்கும் ,.. காதல் உரைத்து முடித்தேன்
உள்ளம் காதலிக்கும் உனக்கு மட்டும் ,.. இன்னும் சொல்லவில்லையே ... இல்லையே ..
லட்சம் பல லட்சம் இங்கு தாய் மொழியில் சொல்லிருக்க
ஒத்த சொல்லு சிக்கவில்லை எதனாலே
பந்தி வச்ச வீட்டுக்காரி பாத்திரத்த கழுவிட்டு
பட்டினிய கிடப்பாளே .. அது போலே.... ( நெஞ்சாங்கூட்டில் நீயே நிற்கிறாய் ......)

Chest pain Acidity Palpitation Dizziness Anxiety Insomnia Bloating

August 25th 2009. The day I felt a mild pain in the chest region. The pain is not too high or two low. I just ignored it. The next day morning after I wake up from sleep, I had same pain persisting. It troubled me a lot bothmentally and physically. The next one week time in office was horrible. I searched for chest pain in internet and got endless list of disease associated. My pain now worsened and I was watching my body very closely to monitor my heart and lung and stomach and elsewhere. I sometime felt my heartbeat. I thought I am hearing because I am keenly observing my body, fearing my chest pain. But I could not convince my mind. I am mentally blocked due to chest pain.

I visited the emergency section (in Glasgow royal infirmiry) and told about my chest pain. The doctors had ECG, x-ray, blood test and finally concluded it to be my acidity and the condition is 'heart burn'. I heard the word 'heart-burn' for first time in my life (was 24 old by then). The doctor recommended to take antacids over the counter.Even antacid is new for me. Infact medicine itself is very new to me as I visit doctor only for cold or fever or someskin allergies till my 24 years.

I had more antacids. One pack of gaviscon after every meal. Approx for 10 days and one day I started feeling dizzy. That drove me crazy. I heard my heart. This kind of episodes happened now and then and I could not figure out anything. It was like a horror movie. But I cant explain these things to others. Because it is something verynew for me and also rare thing for a 24 year old guy. My googling went high, that I read upto genetics to cancer research to stem cells to almost every individual part in the body.

One fine weekend, I felt my heart beat for more than 5 mins and was worried a lot. All of a sudden a dizzy spell. Rushed my roomies to take me to emergency section. But before going to emergency section, all the symptoms stopped.Though I had constant burping, irritation in throat and some acidity related symptoms. I explained about my dizziness and heart beats and again they took ECG and said nothing wrong. I questioned myself 'Am I a fool??' because,I could feel that something is going very wrong in my body. But the doctor says it is nothing.. how could it be possible. Then i started researching more on internet about my conditions (and I frightened myself reading dangerous articles and dreadful conditions that could happen to humanity).
Now, something striked my mind. For the past 2 years I have bloating problem (which I have not given much importance at all, as it dint gave any further problem except to shit often). I thought my bloating could have deep root in my present problems. I imagined I might have some kind of stomach or intestinal cancer and that is why my body started behaving erratically. This added more fear in me. But doctors say iam alright. :(

Then, Finally I made it again to General Practioner. Had a blood test that revealed H.Pylori in my stomach, which proved to cause high acidic stomach and which leads to bloating and so on. So now I had a sigh of relief. I thought and expected that eradicating the H.Pyroli from stomach will end the problem. But it dint. One good thing is my mental confidence increased as doctors found something wrong with me and there is some treatment. I found my stomach does not bloat any further. But still my acidity issues continued. Doctor said that you need to wait for a week or two to get your stomach back to normal.

Slowly, my conditions rolled back to problematic state. Bloating started again.Breathing difficulties and rib cage pains worsened. I started to hear sounds louder than I heard them previously. I cant bear thrilling or devilish music.(I used to listen my iPod at high volume. i all of a sudden thougth that my problem might be because of my high volume, and believe me, i stopped hearing in iPod for some days). Also the winter worsened in 2009 in UK. I felt very bad.. very very bad.I decided atleast I should go back to India and meet my parents and say all these happenings. I traveled to Indiaon Jan 10th 2010. (Aug 09 to Dec 09.. 5 months of mental and physical trauma).

I had Echo, ECG for my heart and everything came out negative (meaning it is in good condition). My doctor in India said it is mere anxiety. My actual problem was acidity due to some food and the chest pain due to acidity. But every other things like heart palpitations, dizziness are all due to my anxiety. Now I am hearing something new again 'Anxiety' ????Anxiety - hmm something new. now what is this. this is purely psychological the doctor said. Now my question is 'am i psycho'. Hmm... I could not bear all these nonsense.. I am definitely alright, i could remember things and work what I need to. So i am definitely not mad.

Then heard about the anxiety and adrenalin relations and then adrenalin and sleep-related issues. Also I was not able to sleep well now. I thought it might be due to new place (since i traveled from UK to India). But my nights became sleepless and chest pain and difficult breathing and acidity and stomach bloating. Oops .. God !!! please save me... that was my mind's feeling. I never believe in god. So how come my utter those words. This is where humans seek for god. Yes, if someone has given me the answer for my problem, then i wont go for God. Now i understood how god came into picture of human's life. I thought whether all these things happenings are something related to attaining god??!!! no idea. nothing clear.

Now I also felt the importance of mind. I understood practically the link between mind and body, as I read something related to anxiety. But medical world has no answers to mind. Medicine can only say about mind related problems but cannot cure any. Then without much help I carried acid reducing tables and some sleeping pills. Came back to work in Chennai, India. It is typical in Chennai for a new person to get vomit and diarrhea in the first week. I did too.Only diarrhea. I went to nearby doctor and she prescribed some antibiotics and importantly PROBIOTICS. I read the contents of the table and to my surprise found that PROBIOTICS table is nothing but bunch of useful bacteria in stomach. After taking the PROBIOTIC pills my bloating went away completely. I felt better. Then I continued to concentrate more on the food habits. My acidity problems seemd to decreased a lot. Now I eat whatever I like. Thankgod. Then continuing my research on my heart-palpitations and sleepless-nights (though my sleep is at least 6 hours). I found that MAGNESIUM deficiency could cause noise-sensitiveness and palpitations. Especially neuron and brain related activities. I now need to try MAGNESIUM rich diet. I will research and will say the output.

From my horrible experience, I conclude(1) Until any person get into solution-less problems, he/she will not seek God truly.(2) Mind can do much harm than anyone can think. But the problem is I cannot explain how horrible I feel hearing loud noise and frightening incidents.(3) Also mind reacts very superbly. I read more medical articles and analyzed in very short period of time just because, my mind wants to find a cure. It never stops at anything till finding a convincing solution.(4) PROBIOTICS are very important. A healthy person is none but who has healthy PROBIOTIC bacteria in his stomach. These bacteria digest and help our digestive system. yet to conculde on solutions to my palpitation/noise-sensitivity/insomnia(sleepless-nights). Probably Magnesium rich diet might help. Let me check.

Also I wish everyone having similar symptoms , not to worry to much. Worrying will not solve the problem, rather it aggravates the problems due to anxiety. Don't read and blindly believe on internet articles. Take only the positive solutions and thoughts from internet. If you take negative and bad things from internet, then you are f**ked.Stop alcohol and smoking. They do more harm than any.Give lots of importance to food habits than your electronic-gadgets and vehicles and home-loans. Don't panic, test yourself and verify with what other say about your condition. Take the one who says very close to your experience. Try to define your conditions exactly and clearly, to figure-out your problem correctly.Finally Blog your experience so that someone might get help from your horrible life.
:) cheers

*****  UPDATE: FOUND THE ANSWER !!! BINGO>>> *******

ALLERGY:

      I found the main problem is my allergy for 'Rice' (especially for raw rice). From my childhood I used to eat only boiled-rice.. But once I started my career, i was always staying away from Tamilnadu and happened to eat raw-rice. I did not knew so far that this could cause so drastic effect in my life. But somehow I am happy now that I found it myself. 

  Whoever is getting the above problems should take responsibility to find the food that is causing allergy reaction for them. No one else can help! .. 

SELF DETECTION METHOD **: 

Stop your food for one/two days (fasting)... Drink plenty of water during that time.. From next day of fasting,  Try chicken-only diet for a week (if vegetarion,, try pure simple vegetable-only diet like "avarakkai" "beans" "podalangaai". This is because can survive with  simple food or little protein and water. 

 So literally no other food. 

Stop milk /milk products/ sugars / caffeine (coffee,tea, coke, etc) for a month. 

Now in a week you should notice considerable improvement.

After first week introduce (i.e testing) "Rice".. if you are not having any bad effects.. then Third week stop rice but introduce next item "peanuts"... if that too did not affect.. in Fourth week introduce "Wheat/Gluten"... if that too is not.. then Fifth week introduce "Milk/Milk products".. 

Mostly you should be finding you are allergic to any of above items.. If all of them are not and the problem still exist. Then it could be something due to environment like pollen/dust etc which you can consult with doctor.

** Disclaimer: This is what I did and noticed problems in rice/caffeine items. So I avoided those things and happy ever since that. Taking this is up to your own decision.