Human vs nature - Am I religious OR scientific OR atheist OR ?

Humans think "Science" is finding solution to everything. But as far as I can see science is finding some temporary fix for problems. But I wont say science as a foolish thing. But science can be considered as an entertainment that human does during their life time. But scientists believe that they can unveil every secrets of universe into mathematical formulas. That will never happen !!!

Nature is far more complicated that humans could imagine. Humans are mere 'OBSERVERS' of nature and make some 'x and y' parameters. Religious people defined arbitrary boundaries like god,rituals etc to answer the unanswerable questions. Scientists observe the behavior of nature and interpret into mathematical equations (but every now and then the science is changing. It has changed its way a lot from Newton's days to Einstein's days). Hmm.. Nature is definitely not this.

Some of the things that science took for granted are

1. CONSCIOUSNESS : It is unmeasurable by science. No one know how it works. In religious terms we can find the term 'soul' similar to scientific term consciousness.
2. EVOLUTION THEORY: Definitely evolution theory is not acceptable. It is a great observation and proposed-theory by Darwin. His theory gave us some insight for DNA and other biological questions. But his full theory is not correct. He himself was doubtful. If the gene mutates for an species then it cannot mate with its own species, that is the observed fact as of today.
3. ATOMIC PARTICLES: Scientists are totally flat with the behavior of electrons and other atomic particles. They are not able to predict how electron becomes wave and particles. But they are sure that they OBSERVED electron behaves as waves and particles. May be on one fine day, a new scientist observe something different and add to that or even totally collapse previous theories on electron.

I can list more and more items .. but the point is .. humans simply cannot match NATURE. Rather than observing and changing the parameters of the nature.. Lets enjoy what NATURE presented us with.. RELIGION has drawn unnecessary boundaries among people and altered the nature of humans. Let the people come out that religious turmoil and act with their free-will and become Humans... naturally.

SCIENCE is meant for betterment of human life in this unknown mysterious universe. But science did something it does not intended to. SCIENCE took out all minerals and oil out of earth's crust and extincted many species, which in turn is an indirect - slow extinction of human beings, our self. Let science change its attitude and see things beyond science (there cannot be enough paper and brain to store the information about universe !!! ) . Let science observe nature and help human beings in a positive way.

Part 2 - The Reality - Fatal Error:3000 Life not found in Software Industry

Previously I have written a post on my thoughts about the software-industry life. Now I am writing the reality that is right-now happening in my life.

I am very pet to my parents and especially mom. Still my school days I spent good time with parents.Though we dint had enough money for a hi-fi life. We dint had a phone, but we were in contact with many. We dint had money but definitely had happiness. I hang around with good friends with whom I can share everything.

This is upto my age 17.

Then I joined engineering and missed my parents. Still the college life is fun. I had again a good close friends in college to whom I can share everything, but the number is less compared to school. We chat chat and chat and roam roam and roam without less than 10 Rs in pocket. And during semester leave I used to spend approx 20 days at home. Those are sweet memories. Mom used to prepare variety of foods. Next we were in race for job by age 20 (3rd year). This is the biggest turning point and the worst turning point.

Age is now 22. I am finishing my college at April 2006 and May 29 2006 I am joining TCS at Bhubaneswar.

I thought , its ok.. just 2 months in bhubaneswar and then will be right back in chennai or b'lore. But the story is very different. I am posted to Ahmedabad which is very very far from my home town (just 3000 kms). For 2 years, I struggled for my transfer to chennai/b'lore. I could hardly go to my home. Also I need to spend approx 9000 per trip to my home. My mom and dad are really missing me and my bro too. My bro is in merchant-navy and he sails for 6 months. So my parents are aged and missing their children. I had terribly bad food (in my perspective) and missing my friend circle and family and mentally affected. I felt hard to push each and every day in Ahmedabad. I still remember that my mom and dad are affected by Chikungunia disease and even could not walk. But I am staying 3000kms apart. I heard my mom's voice in phone and I could feel the dull aching voice. How would you anyone feel? ............. Then I got a job in Mindtree b'lore and still TCS managers in Ahmedabad were not ready to leave me. TCS managers threatened me to stay else I would not get my relieving letter... What an insane world it is !!! ... When my mom heard this.. she felt very bad.... Though I deserve, I missed my parents again. The level of anger I had on Ahmedabad is too high... I simply hated to the extreme to stay in Ahmedabad..

Atlast after 2 and half years,
I got a project in TCS chennai and I thought I will get offshore work. But sadly I got onsite to Glasgow UK. I went to home during Oct 2008 diwali for 3 days. My whole family was there and we enjoyed the diwali. This is one of the best time after almost 3 years.

From 2006 May to 2008 Oct, I was in spent totally 18 days in my home. I usually take 10 days leave in Ahmedabad office and I end up spending only 5 days at home due to long travel. This is bull shit... ..

See this.. out of 850 days I spent only 18 days in my home. Also no more friends in my hometown as everyone settled in concrete-jungles (chennai/b'lore/mumbai). Then I reached Glasgow and visited home for a 2 weeks leave.. So again another 5 days in my home and rest lost in travel and tiredness...

Today it is 24 Sep 2009.... I called my mom.. she said she got problem in eyes and diagnosed some tumor kind of lump in a nerve connecting to brain and needs an operation as soon as possible. I have lakhs of money now. But I cannot go to my hometown tomorrow. I cannot takecare of my mom.

What is the point that I have money and lost my happiness.

Perhaps my money can help her operation.. but it will not give the warmth of my presence.
Atleast, I could have spent my days with my parents if I just resigned TCS on 2006 July when I heard my posting in Ahmedabad.

Stupid me :( I dint had any option. The society molded me into a money-making-machine rather than a life-seeking-human. There are approx 10 lakh people working in IT industry in India. Atleast 40% of that people are experiencing the same situation as I do.

I dont know if I am seeing this incident in a wrong perspective with immature behavior. But this is what I feel.

To Everyone:
Please make sure that your job doesnot interfere your life and it travels parallel y to your life's path. If not your job will pull you away from your life and what remains is just you and your memories of happy-past.