Previously I have written a post on my thoughts about the software-industry life. Now I am writing the reality that is right-now happening in my life.
I am very pet to my parents and especially mom. Still my school days I spent good time with parents.Though we dint had enough money for a hi-fi life. We dint had a phone, but we were in contact with many. We dint had money but definitely had happiness. I hang around with good friends with whom I can share everything.
This is upto my age 17.
Then I joined engineering and missed my parents. Still the college life is fun. I had again a good close friends in college to whom I can share everything, but the number is less compared to school. We chat chat and chat and roam roam and roam without less than 10 Rs in pocket. And during semester leave I used to spend approx 20 days at home. Those are sweet memories. Mom used to prepare variety of foods. Next we were in race for job by age 20 (3rd year). This is the biggest turning point and the worst turning point.
Age is now 22. I am finishing my college at April 2006 and May 29 2006 I am joining TCS at Bhubaneswar.
I thought , its ok.. just 2 months in bhubaneswar and then will be right back in chennai or b'lore. But the story is very different. I am posted to Ahmedabad which is very very far from my home town (just 3000 kms). For 2 years, I struggled for my transfer to chennai/b'lore. I could hardly go to my home. Also I need to spend approx 9000 per trip to my home. My mom and dad are really missing me and my bro too. My bro is in merchant-navy and he sails for 6 months. So my parents are aged and missing their children. I had terribly bad food (in my perspective) and missing my friend circle and family and mentally affected. I felt hard to push each and every day in Ahmedabad. I still remember that my mom and dad are affected by Chikungunia disease and even could not walk. But I am staying 3000kms apart. I heard my mom's voice in phone and I could feel the dull aching voice. How would you anyone feel? ............. Then I got a job in Mindtree b'lore and still TCS managers in Ahmedabad were not ready to leave me. TCS managers threatened me to stay else I would not get my relieving letter... What an insane world it is !!! ... When my mom heard this.. she felt very bad.... Though I deserve, I missed my parents again. The level of anger I had on Ahmedabad is too high... I simply hated to the extreme to stay in Ahmedabad..
Atlast after 2 and half years,
I got a project in TCS chennai and I thought I will get offshore work. But sadly I got onsite to Glasgow UK. I went to home during Oct 2008 diwali for 3 days. My whole family was there and we enjoyed the diwali. This is one of the best time after almost 3 years.
From 2006 May to 2008 Oct, I was in spent totally 18 days in my home. I usually take 10 days leave in Ahmedabad office and I end up spending only 5 days at home due to long travel. This is bull shit... ..
See this.. out of 850 days I spent only 18 days in my home. Also no more friends in my hometown as everyone settled in concrete-jungles (chennai/b'lore/mumbai). Then I reached Glasgow and visited home for a 2 weeks leave.. So again another 5 days in my home and rest lost in travel and tiredness...
Today it is 24 Sep 2009.... I called my mom.. she said she got problem in eyes and diagnosed some tumor kind of lump in a nerve connecting to brain and needs an operation as soon as possible. I have lakhs of money now. But I cannot go to my hometown tomorrow. I cannot takecare of my mom.
What is the point that I have money and lost my happiness.
Perhaps my money can help her operation.. but it will not give the warmth of my presence.
Atleast, I could have spent my days with my parents if I just resigned TCS on 2006 July when I heard my posting in Ahmedabad.
Stupid me :( I dint had any option. The society molded me into a money-making-machine rather than a life-seeking-human. There are approx 10 lakh people working in IT industry in India. Atleast 40% of that people are experiencing the same situation as I do.
I dont know if I am seeing this incident in a wrong perspective with immature behavior. But this is what I feel.
To Everyone:
Please make sure that your job doesnot interfere your life and it travels parallel y to your life's path. If not your job will pull you away from your life and what remains is just you and your memories of happy-past.
I am very pet to my parents and especially mom. Still my school days I spent good time with parents.Though we dint had enough money for a hi-fi life. We dint had a phone, but we were in contact with many. We dint had money but definitely had happiness. I hang around with good friends with whom I can share everything.
This is upto my age 17.
Then I joined engineering and missed my parents. Still the college life is fun. I had again a good close friends in college to whom I can share everything, but the number is less compared to school. We chat chat and chat and roam roam and roam without less than 10 Rs in pocket. And during semester leave I used to spend approx 20 days at home. Those are sweet memories. Mom used to prepare variety of foods. Next we were in race for job by age 20 (3rd year). This is the biggest turning point and the worst turning point.
Age is now 22. I am finishing my college at April 2006 and May 29 2006 I am joining TCS at Bhubaneswar.
I thought , its ok.. just 2 months in bhubaneswar and then will be right back in chennai or b'lore. But the story is very different. I am posted to Ahmedabad which is very very far from my home town (just 3000 kms). For 2 years, I struggled for my transfer to chennai/b'lore. I could hardly go to my home. Also I need to spend approx 9000 per trip to my home. My mom and dad are really missing me and my bro too. My bro is in merchant-navy and he sails for 6 months. So my parents are aged and missing their children. I had terribly bad food (in my perspective) and missing my friend circle and family and mentally affected. I felt hard to push each and every day in Ahmedabad. I still remember that my mom and dad are affected by Chikungunia disease and even could not walk. But I am staying 3000kms apart. I heard my mom's voice in phone and I could feel the dull aching voice. How would you anyone feel? ............. Then I got a job in Mindtree b'lore and still TCS managers in Ahmedabad were not ready to leave me. TCS managers threatened me to stay else I would not get my relieving letter... What an insane world it is !!! ... When my mom heard this.. she felt very bad.... Though I deserve, I missed my parents again. The level of anger I had on Ahmedabad is too high... I simply hated to the extreme to stay in Ahmedabad..
Atlast after 2 and half years,
I got a project in TCS chennai and I thought I will get offshore work. But sadly I got onsite to Glasgow UK. I went to home during Oct 2008 diwali for 3 days. My whole family was there and we enjoyed the diwali. This is one of the best time after almost 3 years.
From 2006 May to 2008 Oct, I was in spent totally 18 days in my home. I usually take 10 days leave in Ahmedabad office and I end up spending only 5 days at home due to long travel. This is bull shit... ..
See this.. out of 850 days I spent only 18 days in my home. Also no more friends in my hometown as everyone settled in concrete-jungles (chennai/b'lore/mumbai). Then I reached Glasgow and visited home for a 2 weeks leave.. So again another 5 days in my home and rest lost in travel and tiredness...
Today it is 24 Sep 2009.... I called my mom.. she said she got problem in eyes and diagnosed some tumor kind of lump in a nerve connecting to brain and needs an operation as soon as possible. I have lakhs of money now. But I cannot go to my hometown tomorrow. I cannot takecare of my mom.
What is the point that I have money and lost my happiness.
Perhaps my money can help her operation.. but it will not give the warmth of my presence.
Atleast, I could have spent my days with my parents if I just resigned TCS on 2006 July when I heard my posting in Ahmedabad.
Stupid me :( I dint had any option. The society molded me into a money-making-machine rather than a life-seeking-human. There are approx 10 lakh people working in IT industry in India. Atleast 40% of that people are experiencing the same situation as I do.
I dont know if I am seeing this incident in a wrong perspective with immature behavior. But this is what I feel.
To Everyone:
Please make sure that your job doesnot interfere your life and it travels parallel y to your life's path. If not your job will pull you away from your life and what remains is just you and your memories of happy-past.
